Rest & PTSD…

Telling the story of my past Overcome with exhaustion sadness, fear, and hurt Thoughts haze and fog Droopy eyelids blink Head weighs heavy Memories of trauma Impossible to carry Alone Drive home safe Collapse into bed Open the window Turn on the fan Weighted blankets Fetal position Calves twitch Intestines flutter God whispers, “rest” Weak […]

Quarantined…

Photo Credit: Ellen McCann I feel like A caged tiger Never knowing How long a Confinement may last This COVID-19 seems like An attack on my freedom Like a controlled emotional manipulation To create a complete mental breakdown Triggered to feel and believe I am —powerless —helpless —lost —without control —without hope And it feels […]

Remembering…

Ice shattered Unbreakable damn breaking River overflowing Rushing fiercely Like never before I am remembering REMEMBERING who I was Before the trauma Before the shame Before the lies Before the pain Before I forgot Now I know Fire raging in my heart I am an artist in recovery 5.13.2020 Ruth Renee #hope #healing #overcoming #joy […]