Do you remember when you had a writing assignment in high school English class, and your teacher had you write the paper multiple times?
There was an initial rough draft, maybe a few edits in-between, and at last, a polished final draft.
What if there is a way to rewrite your life?
COVID19 and the near shutdown of the world has given each of us a unique opportunity.
I hear God crying out to the world to slow down and be still long enough to hear him, to re-evaluate our priorities, to remember who we were as children.
What were your hopes and dreams as a child?
Who did you want to become?
Are you living that life today?
What if you could become the person you only dreamed of as a child?
Imagine the possibilities of allowing God to rewrite your life with Him in the lead.
Here I am, an inactive registered nurse, somewhat feeling guilty that I am currently unable to work in the hospital, side-by-side, with my fellow nurses.
In college, I commit myself to “learn the healer’s art.” Yet, I have been unable to work as an RN for the last 7 years.
I thought It was my life calling and profession. But what if it isn’t anymore?
What if I was exactly where I was called to be these past 7 years? At home struggling and learning to fight, to advocate, to write.
It was during this period that I had time to study, research, and learn how to advocate for the health of myself and my children – physically, mentally, emotionally.
I learned I have autoimmune thyroid disease. I found the correct treatment, which brought 2 years of unexplained nausea and vomiting to a halt.
I learned my son has ADHD and CAPD– a central auditory processing disorder.
I learned how to advocate for my son within the public school system, acquiring him the learning adaptations he needs to gain success and confidence.
I learned I also have CAPD, that I’m not lazy or dumb, the mean names I would call myself when I struggled to achieve academic goals or the pursuits of my heart.
I learned how hard I’ve really worked my whole life to do well in school and work. I learned how gifted and talented I am.
I learned I have a genetic condition known as EDS, or Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. It makes getting out of bed an everyday battle for me. Yet, I learned how to manage. I learned how to navigate the road map that is my new life.
It was also during this time period that repressed memories of some isolated childhood abuse surfaced. What a wild ride the healing has been! It is still ongoing. But I now see God has been with me every step of the way!!
Because of these struggles, I had to slow down and surrender to God in humility. I now see that God has been rewriting my life these past 7 years
I am learning that I have two callings in life.
Both involve “learning the healer’s art.”
The first is nursing. The second, writing.
Writing and sharing my story about the truth of God rewriting my life for the better…
From one of anxiety to peace,
From one of depression to hope,
From one of searching to purpose,
From one of fear to trusting in Him,
Finally, from one of prolonged grief to Joy!
I slowed down long enough to hear Him.
I allowed Him to show me who I really am…
A beloved child of God.
I am safe. I am home. I am fully alive!
May COVID19 be the time you allow God to rewrite your story.
Imagine the possibilities when you surrender your heart and time to God!
Whatever feels lost, whatever feels wrong, God can rewrite your story for good!
I challenge you that when you don’t know what to do, when you feel uncertain, or think the world is out of control…
Be still and imagine how God would rewrite your life. I am confident it can be done. It is worth the time, and most important of all, you are worth it!
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